I think simplicity is just who I am. Here lately, returning to a fifthwheel is a constant dream! While we are still MANY months away from making that happen I do occasionally get online and look. We were living full time in our Sandpiper for 2 1/2 years and our first travel trailer for a year. When we got back into renting (because a big rig hit Matt) I was so excited… at first. The kids continually said how they MISSED the trailer! Well we have been renting for about 8 months now, and while the Father has blessed every single step, I CANNOT wait to begin our life of full-time RVing. We are such a minimalist family, we actually don’t utilize the space we have now and being winter in Colorado, our electric bill is so high!
But through this whole process the Father has walked me through several things…
When you have a home on wheels and can leave at a moments notice, there isn’t a whole lot of anxiety revolved around moving. When you get neighbors that are too loud or you become dissatisfied with your current location, you can just move. Not so much when you have to sign a lease that you are locked into. (Note- This actually used to be a huge struggle for me! Even with our home on wheels I was constantly stressed- one reason why I believe I ended up in the hospital last year. The part year has been one of difficultly for me. And yet I see the fruit the Father is producing though it! Now going back to RVing will be like a full time vacation- in 200 sq. Ft.) So here I find myself learning to trust the Father. This is a process for me, it wasn’t something that I woke up one morning and never struggled with again. One of my biggest down falls has been allowing my mind to mediate on areas that contradict what the Father and Word have said.
I thought before when we were on the road I lived simply. Truth is, we had/have way more than we need and utilize. Do you know what happens when you have a TON of stuff? You have to spend precious time maintaining all the “stuff”. And that’s just no fun. I also found myself so busy managing our home that I didn’t have time to do the things that I love and need, like being a mom that isn’t always busy. Or being able to fully concentrate on reading. I genuinely love reading my Bible, but, when I am plagued by all the chores that need to be done, I’m not allowing the Spirit to guide and direct my time. We are beginning again the life style that truly suites us best, minimalism. This to has been a process, riding ourselves of our “junk drawer”, limiting our wardrobe, going though and donating each possession that doesn’t actually hold significant value. This will make the transition back into a trailer all the more easy.
There were times when I wasn’t intentional with my time. I wouldn’t do what I knew I needed. For myself this is a battle of the flesh that tries to rear its ugly head. Obviously, this simply means I haven’t put that part to death, but merely allowing it to sit on the back burner. If is still holds a place of influence, it hasn’t been put to death. Being a planner it is easy for me to begin the thought process of wanting my own way. The seed that has to be planted deep within, must be that of being about the Fathers will. If we are about our own way, then we are not about the Kingdom.
Obedience isn’t just doing what the Father has said, obedience is doing what the Father has said, the WAY the Father wants. One example would be, us going back into a trailer, not only does it make TOTAL sense. It only started making sense when the Father put it on our hearts. We were dead set on continuing to rent. In the natural there was no way we would be able to save money to get back into the trailer when our lease here is up. So the stress ensued. I started looking in a different direction than the one we originally felt led. However, the Father is so loving and kind and brought me back to the original plan. He also showed us ways we could drastically cut down our budget and begin to live a more simple life which would free up money.
I actually chuckle a bit as I type this, being that I genuinely thought I was dedicated to the KING of kings. The truth is, your life will reflect the dedication you posses. There are people who are more dedicated to sports teams than I was to the Father. To be truly dedicated to the Father, you have to be dead to yourself. I see evermore, how often my flesh makes an appearance throughout the day. In this, the harsh truth of my lack of dedication has been shown. I will also add, that what we give most of our time to, watching movies, watching sports, looking at Pinterest, facebook, instagram, will have place of influence in our lives. This doens’t mean to be a slave to anything, there were times I reluctantly read the Word just so I could justify spending HOURS of these “things”. What you place values on will be shown in your time and also desires. Allow the Father to mold the desires of your heart so that they reflect the ushering in of HIs kingdom.
If it is still easier to offer excuses for the flesh that resides, than we are nothing but babes. Only the truth will set us free, and the truth is, the kingdom is inside. The Kingdom of God is not external until it has been manifest internally. Therefore, if the Kingdom is internal, why then, do outwardly circumstances dedicate our response? Simply put… Jesus the Christ, is not our king. A king has full dominion of his domain. If we then claim that Jesus is our king, and yet flesh reigns, then we have not gown into the matured sons and daughters that we are called. Struggle would be an understatement, in my effort to become accountable. Firstly, I would do this by the might of man, as compared to the freedom of the Father. Plainly, this looks something along the lines of, when I see myself making excuses for my actions, I tell myself, “I’ll do better next time.” The problem is, I continually say this exact phase “the next time”. With the freedom of the Father, we are able to change then. Why? The most common workings of flesh that hold us back, have no influence. Without pride, fear, resentment, bitterness and the like, we are more than willing to take responsibility and be held accountable. If we are not held accountable, than we will never be trusted to give account for anything. Meaning, we will be set in change of nothing. Secondly, my desire to displace blame, comes from the fact that I would rather walk as a slave than son. Truth be told, accountability fares a whole lot better than blame. Taking responsibility for your part (even when others don’t own up to theirs) frees you. It allows you to continue the growth and maturing process of becoming a son.
Our life is unique and it is our own. Growing into the matured sons of our Father is something that is an ever present weight. It is not without sacrifice or hardships. But, the reward is unfathomable to the natural mind. As the Father leads us down a more matured path, our future becomes all the more exciting! As we plan for the next big step, following this current job, we can see the growth positively affecting our children. Instilling in them the desires to follow the Fathers call in all things. When we as parents place not only a value on simplicity but actually walk out a lifestyle that is simply, we are in turn raising children who are not bound by the materialism of the world.